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<p><em>This article was originally published in <a href="https://medium.com/science-policy-in-a-snap">Science Policy in a SNAP</a> via Medium, the blog of the <a href="snapcoalition.org">Scientist Network for Advancing Policy</a>. You can read this article on Medium <a href="https://medium.com/science-policy-in-a-snap/the-lab-bench-under-fascism-a0183f21fac3">here</a> and subscribe to my Medium profile <a href="https://medium.com/@emmascales">here</a> to be alerted of my future posts in Science Policy in a SNAP or other Medium publications.</em></p>

<p><em>Footnotes are denoted with superscript. References are denoted with brackets.</em></p>

<p>Around this time last year, prominent historians put out a smattering of thinkpieces in popular magazines and newspapers communicating a shared concern: the United States government was flirting with fascism [1], [2], [3], [4]. Key tenets of their arguments were the government’s attacks on academia and suppression of intellectualism.</p>

<p>When historians sounded the alarm, they pointed to the federal government’s science and research policies as well [2]. What do these policies surrounding scientific research in the “hard sciences” like biology have to do with authoritarianism, and more specifically, fascism? A lot, as it turns out.</p>

<p>As a civically-engaged biologist and voracious history buff, I want to invite you down the rabbit hole with me to learn why ideologically-driven changes to science policy are alarming. This article takes a critical lens to how fascist regimes of the past wielded both the suppression and weaponization of scientific, specifically biological<sup>1</sup>, research as a double-edged sword, so we can evaluate our present from a sturdier foundation.</p>

<h2 id="what-is-fascism">What is fascism?</h2>
<p>Before we dig deeper, we must undertake the messy business of defining fascism. George Orwell famously wrote,</p>
<blockquote>
  <p>“The word Fascism has now no meaning… Words of this kind are often used in a consciously dishonest way. That is, the person who uses them has his own private definition, but allows his hearer to think he means something quite different.” 
I am going to avoid this offense by being explicit about my relatively liberal definition of fascism for the purpose of this article.</p>
</blockquote>

<p>A fascist regime is one that:</p>
<ul>
  <li>Answers to a dictator or strongman figurehead enabled by a cult of personality or idea that demands unquestioning loyalty [5]</li>
  <li>Violently suppresses opposition through “micropolitical power” in everyday life [6]</li>
  <li>Justifies actions of “internal cleansing and external expansion” [5] with a guiding belief of national or ideological, and often racial or ethnic, superiority
In other words, as put succinctly by the King of Fascism himself, Benito Mussolini: “Everything in the State, nothing outside the State, nothing against the State” [7].</li>
</ul>

<p>It would, of course, serve a modern fascist regime to disrupt and exert control over academic work that involves critical inspection of the past and present sociopolitical environment to deter criticism and opposition. But how can vast disruptions to the scientific research ecosystem be a harbinger of fascism?</p>

<h2 id="science-under-fascism">Science under fascism</h2>
<p>In researching science under fascism, I gained a deeper appreciation for how fascists work to spread  their ideological framework throughout every level of society, truly earning historian Harry Harootunian’s descriptor as “micropolitical power” [6]. Like other aspects of life under fascism, the practice of science under a fascist regime often mirrors the regime itself: a coalescence of power under deified individuals in charge; eradication of science and scientists that contradict the regime; technological development that advances a “technological imaginary” [8] embedded in an ideology of national greatness and superiority above all else; and deeply flawed, often horrifyingly inhumane biomedical research designed to support ethnic superiority and racism.</p>

<p>This is all enabled and codified by science policy. In this way, research and development imbued with fascist ideology directly enables and actively advances the fascist regime. Drastic changes to science policy that widely alter and, where possible, weaponize the practice of science for the advancement of fascist goals is a critical and often overlooked tool of fascism.</p>

<h2 id="eradicating-opposition">Eradicating opposition</h2>
<p>For fascism to take root, it must stamp out any opposition. In 1931, “Il Duce” Benito Mussolini, founder and head of the National Fascist Party of Italy, demanded university professors sign an oath of loyalty to him as a condition of employment<sup>2</sup>. In response to rumors of hesitancy to sign on, the state published the names of the only 11 professors who refused the oath out of more than 1,200 [9].</p>

<p>Months after Hitler came to power, the Nazi regime codified the expulsion of all “non-Aryan” university teachers and those “whose former political activity affords no guarantee that they will act in the interest of the national state at all times and without reservation” [10]. Over 20% of Germany’s university professors were dismissed, more than four fifths of whom were dismissed on antisemitic grounds, regardless of whether these academics were actually members of the Jewish community. Some of these scientists were successful in exile, perhaps most notably Albert Einstein, while others were permanently silenced and murdered by the Nazis or died by suicide [11]. Though less documentation of this exists, Imperial Japan also purged universities of academics deemed to contradict the military regime’s fascist goals in the late 1930’s through the 1940’s [12].</p>

<p>Later, U.S.-backed fascist regimes in Latin America in the 1970’s purged universities of ideological opponents and anyone suspected of harboring such views, often violently. In the first year of the military Junta rule of Argentina led by Jorge Rafael Videla, hundreds of university professors and scientists were dismissed on suspicion of opposition to the Junta, which could include something as minor as having international collaborators, or expressing doubt that unbiased science could be done in an “occidental and Christian” ethnostate [13]. Many of those who were fired were subsequently kidnapped, tortured, and even killed [13]. In Chilé under Augusto Pinochet, similar policies of overt violent repression were enacted, with students and faculty at universities suspected of supporting the deposed left-wing government dismissed, and even kidnapped, tortured, and/or killed. The legacy of this has been recently quantified by a research team led by Maria Angélica Bautista, showing that violent repression and the subsequent decline of enrollment in academic institutions as a whole enshrined in Chilean policy under Pinochet resulted in a loss of upward social mobility, especially for women, that persists long after democratization [14].</p>

<p>In each of these cases, fascist regimes targeted academia early in their rise, essentially as soon as they had accumulated enough power to exert influence over institutions of higher education. Whether through violent coercion, mass firings, or funding restrictions, these governments  targeted academics broadly to ensure that the scientists and intellectuals who remained in influential positions would support, or at least not impede, the procession of fascism. 
Scientists as complicit bystanders</p>

<p>I want to draw particular attention to scientists and educators who placated the government by peddling fascist ideology, or at the very least not refuting it, to advance their own careers. In Nazi Germany, the scientists who remained in the Third Reich after the political purge of academia enjoyed abundant funding from the federal government, even for projects that appear unrelated to the Nazis’ fascist goals of ethnic cleansing and conquest, especially in biological fields [15], but at an incalculable cost. Nearly 60% of biologists who remained in Germany declared as members of the Nazi party, and even those who didn’t, were able to secure funding by giving fodder to the Nazis’ impression of their own political system as “applied biology” [16]. Loyalty to the regime, or at least apathy to it, was a prerequisite for a scientific career under the Third Reich.</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>“[Scientists’] indifference, cynicism, and brutal careerism were essential to how fascism functioned” [17] 
in Italy according to Massimo Mazzati, a History of Science professor at U.C. Berkley. In the years preceding the enactment of the 1938 race laws and following the 1931 oath of loyalty to Mussolini, the government tested the waters of public opinion with the dissemination of racist propaganda and publications defining race based on policies of oppression and segregation directed at mixed-race people living in the Italian colonies in Africa. These policies were met with silence from the academic community, though they privately considered their biological footing “foolish”, and so racism permeated Italian society uncontested by intellectuals who knew better. When the race laws were enacted, university administrators supplied lists of Jewish students and faculty to the government, double-checked for accuracy, immediately upon demand [17].</p>
</blockquote>

<h2 id="scientists-as-active-architects-and-buttresses-of-fascist-policy-and-practice">Scientists as active architects and buttresses of fascist policy and practice</h2>
<p>The Italian race laws of 1938 were actually informed and preceded by the “Manifesto of Racial Scientists” drafted by anthropologists, zoologists, and other scientists, including prominent academics, who undoubtedly authored it at the behest of Mussolini, as the idea of an “Italian race” with “Aryan” origins is nonsensical [18]. While many Italians recognized that their ethnic ancestries were scattered throughout the Mediterranean and beyond, so-called biological scientists nonetheless supported the fabrication of a national racial identity. This manifesto served as the basis for the enactment of the race laws that essentially barred Jews and Africans from attending schools and joining professional society, and prohibited marriage between Italians and Jews, Africans, or any other “non-European” ethnic group [19]. Arguments for a superior Italian race were published biweekly by biologists, geneticists, and anthropologists in a journal of sorts, La Difesi de la Razza (Defense of the Race) from 1938 until 1945 [20].</p>

<p>During World War II, Axis Japan’s notorious Unit 731 program led by physicians, biologists, and chemists conducted horrific experiments on mostly Chinese victims, supposedly for the development of biological and chemical weapons and defenses against them. These experiments went far beyond that purpose and verged into outright torture [21]. One physician described the specialist in charge of Unit 731, Ishii Shiro, as “like a god to us, and we thought what he was doing was necessary for our country to win the war” [22]. In this way and others, this genocidal experimentation project was a microcosm of the larger fascist system, with a deified man at the helm regarded as infallible. Chilean scientists under Pinochet also conducted experimentation related to the development of chemical and biological warfare on political prisoners under the ANDREA program [23].</p>

<p>When it came to the most famous example of genocide that prompted the definition of the word itself, scientists were the wind beneath the Nazi Eagle’s wings. Geneticists advised and helped enforce the Law for the Prevention of Genetically Diseased Offspring, which codified the forced sterilization of disabled Germans in 1933. They wrote the doctrine separating “Aryans” and “non-Aryans” that formed the basis of the Nuremberg Laws and trained doctors and medical professionals in “genetic care” that allowed for the enactment of these laws [24]. Scientists and medical professionals formed the bedrock of and directly carried out national policies of sterilization and genocide that resulted in the forced sterilization of over 400,000 people and the deaths of six million Jewish people during the Holocaust and at least 250,000 mentally or physically disabled children, elderly people, adults with mental or chronic physical illness, non-Aryan people, and foreign forced laborers through gassing, lethal injection, or starvation under the Euthanasia Program [25].</p>

<h2 id="to-avoid-the-mistakes-of-the-past-scientists-must-embrace-their-social-responsibility">To avoid the mistakes of the past, scientists must embrace their social responsibility</h2>
<p>The truth is often uncomfortable, but we cannot neglect it; “those who do not learn history are doomed to repeat it” and whatnot. But what is the lesson to be learned from this deeply uncomfortable truth that our beloved scientific community, once thought immune to cynicism, directly and indirectly enabled the horrors committed under fascist regimes? It may be tempting to turn to more cynicism, to sympathize with scientists who were “forced” to choose their careers over the moral high ground. I would pitch an alternative takeaway grounded in a broader context.</p>

<p>Scientific progress often contradicts strongly held beliefs; it requires humility and flexibility of mind for a scientist to genuinely accept new findings and criticisms and integrate them into their approach. That kind of flexibility is not amenable to the advancement of fascist ideology, which insists upon infallibility and unquestioning loyalty to principles that are often at odds with reality.  When viewed this way, the practice of science is inherently antifascist. Nonetheless, scientists are human, susceptible to the same manipulation and fearmongering tactics that fascists use to accumulate power, even to the draw of holding some of that power themselves, as exemplified by the fascist scientists discussed above.</p>

<p>This is why we must be vigilant and look out for our community. We need scientists who critically discuss what kinds of limitations are placed on research topics eligible for federal funding and pushes from the government toward research spending in specific subject areas. We need scientists who speak out, who consider the state of the world beyond issues immediately affecting their funding. We need scientists who are aware of the historical role of scientists in perpetuating fascist ideology rooted in racism, sexism, ableism, and other superiority complexes, so that we can recognize it and take action when we see the same ugly cycle rear its head. We need to remind ourselves of the horrific consequences of scientists neglecting their social responsibility<sup>3</sup> to reinvigorate commitment to our own.</p>

<p>Fascism, for precisely these same reasons that make it seem so powerful, is weak. To rely on violence and coercion is to admit the foundation of your power lies in an ideological viewpoint that conflicts with reality. In other words, it is exceedingly vulnerable. It is debatable whether fascism would have risen to prominence without the support or indifference of scientists. Precisely because it has been so instrumental in the rise of fascist governments in the past, science can and should be a bulwark against fascist governments.  We cannot make the same mistakes; we should know better.</p>

<h3 id="footnotes">Footnotes:</h3>
<ol>
  <li>Note that I exclude the physical sciences and engineering advancements that fueled fascist war efforts and colonial development for brevity, but please let us know if you’d like to see a follow-up article to that effect.</li>
  <li>“I swear to be faithful to the King and his royal successors and the Fascist régime. I swear loyally to observe the Constitution and laws of the kingdom. I swear to exercise the office of teacher and to fulfill my academic duties with the aim of forming industrious and upright citizens, devoted to their country and the Fascist régime. I swear I do not belong nor will I belong to associations or parties whose activities are irreconcilable with the duties of my office.”</li>
  <li>The published resistors were: Bartolo Nigrisoli, pathologist at the University of Bologna; Giorgio Errera, chemist at the University of Pavia; Ernesto Buonariuti, Professor of Christian History; Giorgio Ievi, mathematician; Senator Vito Volterra, physicist at the University of Rome; Lionello Venturi, Professor of History and Art; Senator Francesco Ruffini, historian; Mario Carrara, physiologist at the University of Turin; Pietro Martinetti, Professor of Commercial Law at the University of Milan; Ernesto Ruffini of the University of Perugia, and Gaetano de Fantis [9].
For compelling and thought-provoking arguments of scientists’ social responsibility, see Sakharov, A. The responsibility of scientists. Nature 291, 184–185 (1981). https://doi.org/10.1038/291184a0 and Bird SJ. 2014. Socially Responsible Science Is More than “Good Science”. J Microbiol Biol Educ. 15: https://doi.org/10.1128/jmbe.v15i2.870.</li>
</ol>

<h3 id="sources-cited">Sources Cited</h3>
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<p><em>Special thanks to fellow SNAP members who provided feedback on this article: <a href="https://medium.com/@amanda.finn08">Amanda Finn</a>, a Nutrition Sciences PhD candidate studying physiological and social determinants of insulin resistance in people with overweight/obesity; <a href="https://medium.com/@jolybdenum">Jordan Williams</a>, a pharmacology PhD candidate studying how to alter the lung’s innate immune responses to better treat chronic respiratory diseases; and <a href="https://medium.com/@kassstem">Kassandra Fernandez</a>, an engineering education researcher and PhD candidate with a background in medical microbiology.</em></p>]]></content><author><name></name></author><category term="Science" /><category term="Policy" /><category term="in" /><category term="a" /><category term="SNAP" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">For the love of gardening (&amp;amp; writing about it)</title><link href="/personal/2026/03/24/gardening.html" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="For the love of gardening (&amp;amp; writing about it)" /><published>2026-03-24T21:08:47+00:00</published><updated>2026-03-24T21:08:47+00:00</updated><id>/personal/2026/03/24/gardening</id><content type="html" xml:base="/personal/2026/03/24/gardening.html"><![CDATA[<p><img src="/_images/garden.JPG" alt="Image" /></p>

<p><em>Image is a detail from a gouache painting I made in 2021.</em></p>

<p>OOoo gardening, what an original thing to write about. But it’s a popular subject for a reason! There’s something so—as far as we know—human about the attempt to communicate a lived experience directly to others through some art form: prose, poetry, painting… blogging. I think that for so many creative types like me, gardening elicits that very human desire to communicate what we’re experiencing precisely because it is not innately human; it awakens a connection to a more ancient sense of being a living thing, an organism not any more special than the rest, utterly entwined with the others that inhabit our very special home planet. In a time and place where that feeling is increasingly rare, where food comes to us in plastic packaging with ever-disheartening price tags after it’s been plucked from a biological monolith and shipped some hulking distance, it feels like a secret—almost forbidden—that, yes, food can be grown; yes, food is alive. Of course we want to tell each other about it.</p>

<p>Gardening, agriculture, cultivating other living things for some communal purpose—grub, garb, etc.—is a practice we share with so many others across the tree of life. Here in Animalia, our beetle cousins <a href="https://direct.mit.edu/books/oa-edited-volume/5272/chapter/3612455/Mycangia-Define-the-Diverse-Ambrosia-Beetle-Fungus/" target="_blank">tend to fungus gardens</a> and our fish cousins <a href="https://link.springer.com/article/10.1186/1471-2148-10-185/" target="_blank">defend and support massive algae lawns</a> , to name just two agriculturalist species. Over in the strange world of Fungi, where I spend a lot of my time, mycorrhizal fungi nurture plants on an <a href="https://www.spun.earth/mapping/a-hidden-infrastructure/" target="_blank">incomprehensibly massive scale</a>  that Big Ag can only dream of. There’s a well-supported theory, that kind of like how there would be no morphologically mutilated snuffling French bulldogs without us, there would likely be no land plants if not for fungi.</p>

<p>Beyond the concept of it, when I’m tending to my own garden, lost in the deliciously dirty act of it, I feel like a damselfish picking the algal competitors off my rock lush with my chosen crop of green filaments. I forget for a while that I’m an adult human with all these supposedly important things demanding my attention. It feels like nothing else matters. I want to eat. This plant will not feed me *pluck*; this bug is eating my food *flick*; this bug is eating the bugs that eat my food *thank*. I move through my spiraling rows, Great Ape that I am, stooped over with my stomach resting on my thighs and knuckles in the dirt, making small, easy decisions, over and over and over.</p>

<p>And, by God, isn’t it a release.</p>

<p>My garden is fulfilling, of course in a nutritional sense, but also in a personal sense. In late March, I started three trays of seedlings indoors, even taking the time to re-pot each one a few weeks later, before putting them in the ground in May. I made a lot of mistakes. The individual re-potting of 60+ seedlings was totally unnecessarily, which I did anyway with the assistance of my sweet partner who went along with my insistence that it was totally necessary. The seedlings still prominently held their cotyledons, barely past their first set of true leaves, even until I planted them in the ground. I was just so excited they sprouted; they’ll make it, I thought.  Then I got busy in the lab, and I skipped two sunny days of watering, which is very ill-advised for seedlings at that stage. I just didn’t know any better, despite being employed as an academic in a plant sciences department (that’s a whole other essay). They all died. Every single one!</p>

<p>This meant that in early June, my plot was littered with measly seedlings that I had sown directly into the ground on top of the mass grave that was my first attempt, while it felt like the rest of the plots in our community garden were filling with life: huge, sprawling cucurbit leaves, beans and vine-type tomatoes starting to climb trellises, and garlic shoots reaching for the clouds. But soon enough, with a couple healthy doses of composted cow poop and consistent watering and weeding, my plot joined the ranks.</p>

<p>Now I garden a few times a week, watering as needed and going through the ritual of moving through my plants and weeding, which now requires careful steps to make footfall in the few areas of ground not occluded by growth. There are so many flowers, and so many fruits. And I’m so f*cking proud of them. I thought this feeling was reserved for accomplishments deemed major by the faceless societal powers-that-be like finally finishing my Ph.D. Yet, here I am, swelling with pride and unable to shut up about my garden, something that a lot of people, as I’ve learned, don’t even consider an accomplishment, but rather a redundant undertaking deterring me from the modern human purpose of Maximum Efficiency.</p>

<p>Yet, the feeling persists. Just like the weeds, who are constantly reminding me of life’s persistence. In a few dozen square feet of dirt, with a few dozen hours of being an organism actively engaged in symbiosis, I have become so full. I wonder if damselfish and Ambrosia beetles feel this too. Maybe it’s just me and the other garden bloggers.</p>]]></content><author><name></name></author><category term="Personal" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[]]></summary></entry></feed>